Poems

Heartless

People say I’m heartless

No, I’m not. I do have a heart.

I just keep it somewhere, protected.

I put it in my precious box, and locked

As it has been broken into tiny pieces

That I don’t even know how to mend it anymore

People may say whatever they want

But my heart will stay right there,

until I’m done putting the pieces all together.

-EB-

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Questions

How do I stop myself from wanting your kiss?

How can I stop myself from missing you?

What should I do to stop myself from dreaming of you?

This desire tears me up

But this heart has fallen for you too deep

Oh dear, what have you done?

Oh dear self, what have I done?

Poems

Bodoh

Karena pada akhirnya, tetap aku yang tersakiti

Tetap aku yang menitikkan air mata

Jadi, untuk apa aku bertahan,

Untuk apa aku tinggal?

Sementara dirimu hanya datang dan pergi sesuka hati

Semau waktu,

Seingin tubuhmu menghampiri

Bodoh, jika aku diperbudak oleh hadirmu

Bodoh, jika aku tetap di sini

Bodoh, jika aku masih tenggelam dalam tatapmu

-EB-

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The Pain

Have you ever feel the pain that you cannot even describe?

Have you known the feeling that hurts you so bad until you cannot breathe?

Or have you ever feel the pain that makes you cry til you fall asleep?

I have been pushed away, i have been pulled, and I have been drowned

But I swallow all these pains

Though I know, I will be broken into pieces one day

-EB-

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The wall

Everyone builds their own safety wall.

One might be thicker than the other.

At certain moment, the wall will be tear down. It may be by love, by trust, or by opportunity.

One it’s down, you suddenly feel vulnerable, weak, and yet loved.

Without you realize, you actually in the process of building another wall.

But this time, not to protect yourself, but to protect what you have now.. the love, the trust.

-Tha-

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Senja

.senja.

Senja selalu datang perlahan, tak tergesa. Senja justru kerap membuat orang menjadi tergesa, menyelesaikan segala aktivitas yang sedari pagi sudah direncana.

Senja dan temaram sinarnya pun mampu membuat gundah hati. Kegelisahan akan kesendirian, ketakutan akan kegelapan.

Tapi senja pun berarti harapan.. bahwa hari ini segera berganti, dan mungkin esok kan lebih baik.

-Tha-